I (Jessica) am a very self-driven and determined person, and I would say that fear failure more than anything. I want to be great at everything that I do, and I constantly strive and push myself to always put forth one hundred percent in everything that I do. This can be a good and bad quality to have because, I either am very successful or I beat myself up for falling short or completely failing. I get stuck in a negative mindset and shut off to the thing or person that I fell short of, and this is never a good place to be in. Proverbs 19:20 tell us to, "listen to advice and accept instruction, and in the end you will be wise."We have to find faith in our moments of fear, and we must seek wise words and God's plan because that is the key to being content, success in life, which will bring your life alive.
We all want to be successful in life, I would say that is a safe and valid statement. All of our dreams look very different, but the desires that burn in our hearts create the same feelings. Some of us strive to reach those desires harder than others, for me I go after what I want with a lot of effort. We do not need to worry because if you, "delight yourself in the Lord, He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4. Very often, I try to stick to the path that I think or make myself believe that God would want me to be on in order to be successful and reach the desires of my heart. I have a lot of trouble just letting things happen and fall into place because I try to make everything harder than it has to be. I am SO analytical and try to figure out my life before it has had time to even play out yet. I have to remind myself very often that I need to just live and quit worrying. I am learning that I have to put forth more faith in God and believe in his powerful ways, which will be much more impactful on my life if I just step away and let him take action, which leads me to these wise words, "it is simply absurd to say you believe or even want to believe, in Him, if you do not do anything He tells you. . ."
Where is my faith in GOD ?! I am constantly asking the what ifs and whys about different aspects of my life whether it's small or big in my eyes. I am also learning that walking in faith does not mean that I am going to try and pretend that none of my negative feelings exist and that I can swallow them down and carry on with a fake positive outlook on the situation. Do not try to fool yourself or convince God that you are walking in faith with the right mindset, it will catch up to you SO quickly and you will be stuck. You have to set your heart in the right direction by emptying out everything that is holding you down, and once you release all the ties by being honest with yourself and truly listening to God's wisdom you will be able to carry on in your walk of faith with true positive outlook.
Walking in faith and listening to God's wisdom is not always easy, especially when you are constantly trying to make something work or figure out why this or that did not play out like you planned in your life. My advise to you is to simply STEP AWAY, quit trying to figure out your life and just live. Listen to the wisdom that He is pouring out and use it to help you reach the walk of faith, which is standing on the highest point that you can reach and being completely confident that you are will not fall. Then when you are at the steepest point you take off in faith, and God will guide you along the way. God places us exactly where He wants us to be and we must be faithful to him by listening to what He wants us to do. In order to fulfill the life that God has for us we need to be less focused on our plan and just live out every day by seeking his wise plan. However, do not get so caught up in trying to figure everything out that you become biter and cold because God's nature is loving and compassionate; so therefore; He wants us to love other and laugh while enjoying life. God will stir up love and passion within you if you let him take complete control, be faithful to him by showing him you trust him with your life !!! His ways are greater and higher than you and I can even comprehend, so reach out to him and will pour wisdom and love into your life.
Much Love to You,