Tuesday, December 13, 2011


Trusting God is one of the hardest things in the world to do... but it is also the most vital thing we can  do for our spiritual life.
Everyone is always saying "just trust God", but that's so much easier said than done. In a world where were constantly comparing ourselves to others and basing our happiness off how we measure up to others it's just hard to let go and trust that God has our lives planned out. 

If I'm being honest here, there have been more times than I can count in my life where things just weren't going right, and instead of relinquishing things to God I felt like I could fix it and I could make it right. I wanted it to go my way and the only way for that to happen was for me to do it. But oh how wrong I was.

The area where I struggle with trust the most is in my relationship with my boyfriend. Living in the south it is a common practice for people to get married straight out of college. This has always been my dream. I have it all planned out in my head. Unfortunately, that plan is not unfolding the way I had hoped. I struggled for a long time with accepting God's plan and getting rid of my own. I wanted to be engaged last summer and when that didn't happen I was really upset with God. He knew how bad I wanted that to happen and it seemed like it was happening to everyone around me, but not me. It felt like I woke up every morning to news of someone else getting engaged, and instead of being happy for them I was jealous. Jealousy is an ugly thing and it really started taking a toll on my relationship. For months I was so bitter about the whole thing. 

I prayed so long for God to take this pain away. I knew what I wanted, but I also knew deep down that what's later is greater. I knew I had to give up what I wanted and go with God. 

What seemed like over night, I started feeling much better and started embracing where I was in life. I got to the point where I realized that right now is my time to grow into the women that God so desperately wants me to be. I am learning so much about myself in this season. 

The other day on Facebook I saw this video. I literally bawled my eyes out the entire time I watched it. This is what this season of my life is all about... becoming a Proverbs 31 women. 
I'm not ready to be engaged, God is still making me into the women that my future husband deserves. 

I have fully embraced where I am in my life and I honestly couldn't be happier. It's amazing what happens when you give up on your own plan and start TRUSTING in God's. 
If you are struggling with trusting in God's plan for your life please pray this prayer...

"Heavenly Father, I come to you today broken. I am broken because I have not been fully trusting in Your plan for my life. I thought I could do it on my own, but I know that Your way is the best. To you my future is a memory, because You're already there. From today on I will trust in You. I pray that You will continually remind me that You are in control.

One day I'll stand before You and look back on the life I lived, 
I cant wait to enjoy the view and see how all the pieces fit.

Be blessed,


  1. First of all, I'm so excited about this Proverbs 31 movement. I'm loving it!!!

    Second, I can completely identify with you on the waiting for His plan thing. In college I was in a relationship where I thought my boyfriend was 'the one' well, turns out he wasn't and I just didn't understand why God would give me such a heartbreak. But to be honest, I needed to be broken down, I needed to ask questions, I needed to learn how to be me and rely on God again. God brought my husband into my life when I least expected it. I'm so glad I waited for His plan because it was better than any I could have imagined for myself. I know that I will have many more situations in my life where I will have to learn, again, that it's best to wait on Him but I try to constantly remind myself of the fact that God's plan is best. When you try to do things your way, people get hurt and you go the wrong way.

    Thank you for writing this post. I completely understood what you were talking about and I really identified with it.

  2. Amazing post and such great insight- I have too often in the past found myself feeling the same way about feeling left behind on an engagement. Yet, the truth of the matter is that when I put my complete and utter faith in God, I know that my time will come; when my time is right. Thank you for writing on such a great topic!

  3. Oh my gosh, you could not have written a post more directed toward how I'm feeling! I completly understand. I grew up in a small town and went to college in the middle of the Bible Belt....which means that everyone was married by the time they graduated from college (if not sooner!). I'm 28 and still single and I tell you, some days it's such a struggle to just trust that He knows what he's doing! But I just have to believe that His plan is so much better than my own--I'm so glad that He is in control and not me.

    I actually wrote a letter to myself at 16 addressing this issue last week. Here's the link if you want to check it out: http://tiffanyd22.blogspot.com/2011/12/letter-to-16-year-old-me.html

    Oh, and I've got a blog scheduled about the Proverb's 31 movement tomorrow--so great, right?


  4. This is me. I am struggling SO much to embrace God's plan and completely let go of mine... You are inspiring me!