Trusting God is one of the hardest things in the world to do... but it is also the most vital thing we can do for our spiritual life.
Everyone is always saying "just trust God", but that's so much easier said than done. In a world where were constantly comparing ourselves to others and basing our happiness off how we measure up to others it's just hard to let go and trust that God has our lives planned out.
If I'm being honest here, there have been more times than I can count in my life where things just weren't going right, and instead of relinquishing things to God I felt like I could fix it and I could make it right. I wanted it to go my way and the only way for that to happen was for me to do it. But oh how wrong I was.
The area where I struggle with trust the most is in my relationship with my boyfriend. Living in the south it is a common practice for people to get married straight out of college. This has always been my dream. I have it all planned out in my head. Unfortunately, that plan is not unfolding the way I had hoped. I struggled for a long time with accepting God's plan and getting rid of my own. I wanted to be engaged last summer and when that didn't happen I was really upset with God. He knew how bad I wanted that to happen and it seemed like it was happening to everyone around me, but not me. It felt like I woke up every morning to news of someone else getting engaged, and instead of being happy for them I was jealous. Jealousy is an ugly thing and it really started taking a toll on my relationship. For months I was so bitter about the whole thing.
I prayed so long for God to take this pain away. I knew what I wanted, but I also knew deep down that what's later is greater. I knew I had to give up what I wanted and go with God.
What seemed like over night, I started feeling much better and started embracing where I was in life. I got to the point where I realized that right now is my time to grow into the women that God so desperately wants me to be. I am learning so much about myself in this season.
The other day on Facebook I saw this video. I literally bawled my eyes out the entire time I watched it. This is what this season of my life is all about... becoming a Proverbs 31 women.
I'm not ready to be engaged, God is still making me into the women that my future husband deserves.
I have fully embraced where I am in my life and I honestly couldn't be happier. It's amazing what happens when you give up on your own plan and start TRUSTING in God's.
If you are struggling with trusting in God's plan for your life please pray this prayer...
"Heavenly Father, I come to you today broken. I am broken because I have not been fully trusting in Your plan for my life. I thought I could do it on my own, but I know that Your way is the best. To you my future is a memory, because You're already there. From today on I will trust in You. I pray that You will continually remind me that You are in control.
One day I'll stand before You and look back on the life I lived,
I cant wait to enjoy the view and see how all the pieces fit.